fuuck big head ache
everything i do is like quicksand
even though i try and try harder
sinks me down deeper..
fuck man..
December 13, 2009
November 14, 2009
fucck tonight..
worst way to end the night..
fucken almost pulled a muscle at the gym.
almost got hit while driving home twice !
found out mom only wanted my handicap placard so her fucken boyfriend could park his other car at our house..
fucken taking two parking spaces with his cars..
i come home and someone ate my last chippy.
FUUUUUUCK MY LIFE..
i wish i was skinny again
fucken almost pulled a muscle at the gym.
almost got hit while driving home twice !
found out mom only wanted my handicap placard so her fucken boyfriend could park his other car at our house..
fucken taking two parking spaces with his cars..
i come home and someone ate my last chippy.
FUUUUUUCK MY LIFE..
i wish i was skinny again
November 11, 2009
Sleepless night
RT @RevRunWisdom: 2 have a great relationship.. u have 2 choose being happy & 2gether instead of always having 2 be right
Rev run couldn't be anymore right when he posted this one.. I guess you can say sometimes were to blind to see or to know when it's not always the best thing to always be right.. I guess you can say I've always been trying to be right and I end up being an asshole instead... I can easily speak for everyone in the world and say .. Relationships are hard... And live has it's pros and cons.. But I guess you can also say the pros or cons can out weigh each other depending on the love and understanding you have for one another.. If you allow yourself to see the little bad things to be bigger than they are.. You become blind to see the bigger picture and that is to know what things can be easily worked out if it's understood and kept small.. Like rev run said to .. Take care of problems while their infants because when their grown their more hard and mor painful.. It's true.. Ugh I've been up restless and not even a bit of my eyes are tired but the only thing I am tired of is the fact that in the end of it all there's only one thing I need and want no matter what shit goes on one person and that's Klarissa libramonte.. Although we might be dramatic selfish assholes.. The way I love her cannot be matched or broken..ugh she's the one person I can easily say.. Would want to spend a more than a lifetime with..
ugh.. I can't even sleep because I'm not sleepy soo much is running through my head... I wouldve thought that the divorce would not affect me but it has bigger than I couldve imagined.. And to top it off I've lost the one person who was everything to me..I have too much in my mind and need something or someone to help me out of it.. I'm really considering moving out..
Rev run couldn't be anymore right when he posted this one.. I guess you can say sometimes were to blind to see or to know when it's not always the best thing to always be right.. I guess you can say I've always been trying to be right and I end up being an asshole instead... I can easily speak for everyone in the world and say .. Relationships are hard... And live has it's pros and cons.. But I guess you can also say the pros or cons can out weigh each other depending on the love and understanding you have for one another.. If you allow yourself to see the little bad things to be bigger than they are.. You become blind to see the bigger picture and that is to know what things can be easily worked out if it's understood and kept small.. Like rev run said to .. Take care of problems while their infants because when their grown their more hard and mor painful.. It's true.. Ugh I've been up restless and not even a bit of my eyes are tired but the only thing I am tired of is the fact that in the end of it all there's only one thing I need and want no matter what shit goes on one person and that's Klarissa libramonte.. Although we might be dramatic selfish assholes.. The way I love her cannot be matched or broken..ugh she's the one person I can easily say.. Would want to spend a more than a lifetime with..
ugh.. I can't even sleep because I'm not sleepy soo much is running through my head... I wouldve thought that the divorce would not affect me but it has bigger than I couldve imagined.. And to top it off I've lost the one person who was everything to me..I have too much in my mind and need something or someone to help me out of it.. I'm really considering moving out..
November 10, 2009
November 7, 2009
Tribulations
Life always has it's shortcomings ... I miss my aunt but I know and my aunt would want me to know that I need to learn to be strong and lead my own path with my own guidance ahh lifes hard.. Relationships are hard.. One thing I've realize also is that Karl is a good boyfriend to my mom and I have to face the facts.. And with my relationship.. There's always the ups and downs of it but to make em work you just gotta know how pick each other up when the relationship is at it's down I love my girlfriend although we might fight or she might annoy me.. That's life the perfect relationship isn't the best way to go.. It's the imperfect ones that challenge our hearts and strengthen them to know how and where to find real love.
As it goes for what I'm most thankful for:
Life
Family
Girlfriend
And love because most people want to have it but have a difficult time finding it
As it goes for what I'm most thankful for:
Life
Family
Girlfriend
And love because most people want to have it but have a difficult time finding it
November 4, 2009
Assfghjkl
Some people always say things are better when there asleep they want to stay asleep and never wake up.. Well I dint want to sleep because I don't want to see tomorrow..:( I don't want to sleep...talk...tweet..see..use myspace...use anything I just want to isolate myself and never sleep so I can never wake up to a new day
November 3, 2009
October 27, 2009
Ahhh start of a good day
Hmmm what a good day thought I was going to be late but I got in class in time it my hw done and in time and I jumped from rank 20 to rank 17 and my babygiirk hasn't annoyed me yet :) hahahh jk yaaay I love you baby fish taco Tuesday now since my baby is back home we've missed you and glad your home love you now gotta get back to paying attention on class
October 25, 2009
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I never got to say this because I didn't want to post up anything
anywhere saying rip auntie because I didn't want to anyone to know of
my heartache I've grown and learned to become a more mature person to
always handle what's going on in my life..just in MY life instead of
boasting it to the world of The loss of someone who I consider to be
my mother..I've learned that the world doesn't need to know my pain
and heartache..I've come to a turning point in my life were I find
myself empty hearted.. I haven't been doing anything right and nothing
seems to come my way but I just try to keep myself and my heart
optimistic as posible.. But I just find myself in a gutter.. Nothing I
ever say or do is ever considered to be the right choice of words or
actions... I feel now as if i'm just doing no good but wrong all the
positive I bring out of myself becomes a negative I find myself in a
stand point of not knowing what to do to make it right or to get what
I want... Sometimes I feel so lost and Alone knowing my aunts gone
when I look through my old conversations on my phone of that I had
with my aunt I find my self in the confusion of forgetting she's not
there to reply.. Were I stand is in the shadow of failure...failure as
a son..failure as a friend... Failure as a cousin... Failure as a
boyfriend.. Failre as a brother and failure in general.. As much as I
try to give there's nothing I Can physically emotionally or even
mentally do to earn what I think I deserve.. It's 5 am and I'm outside
in the cold feeling no feeling physically in my extemities and no
feeling mentally in my mind.. I wish as emo as is sounds that god
would just take me.. Or even just tell me how to be the person that
deserves I've done nothing but
dissappoint ..anger...frustrate..annoy..Push away everything I don't
want to do anything anymore as my heart remains empty and my voice
remain unheard my mind is a blank. I want to sleep knowing I won't
wake up.
anywhere saying rip auntie because I didn't want to anyone to know of
my heartache I've grown and learned to become a more mature person to
always handle what's going on in my life..just in MY life instead of
boasting it to the world of The loss of someone who I consider to be
my mother..I've learned that the world doesn't need to know my pain
and heartache..I've come to a turning point in my life were I find
myself empty hearted.. I haven't been doing anything right and nothing
seems to come my way but I just try to keep myself and my heart
optimistic as posible.. But I just find myself in a gutter.. Nothing I
ever say or do is ever considered to be the right choice of words or
actions... I feel now as if i'm just doing no good but wrong all the
positive I bring out of myself becomes a negative I find myself in a
stand point of not knowing what to do to make it right or to get what
I want... Sometimes I feel so lost and Alone knowing my aunts gone
when I look through my old conversations on my phone of that I had
with my aunt I find my self in the confusion of forgetting she's not
there to reply.. Were I stand is in the shadow of failure...failure as
a son..failure as a friend... Failure as a cousin... Failure as a
boyfriend.. Failre as a brother and failure in general.. As much as I
try to give there's nothing I Can physically emotionally or even
mentally do to earn what I think I deserve.. It's 5 am and I'm outside
in the cold feeling no feeling physically in my extemities and no
feeling mentally in my mind.. I wish as emo as is sounds that god
would just take me.. Or even just tell me how to be the person that
deserves I've done nothing but
dissappoint ..anger...frustrate..annoy..Push away everything I don't
want to do anything anymore as my heart remains empty and my voice
remain unheard my mind is a blank. I want to sleep knowing I won't
wake up.
September 28, 2009
update on life.
worth.
1. The quality that renders something desirable, useful, or valuable:
Worth. pretty much we all know the word "worth" pertains to something that is valuable or desirable to someone. As of September 28, 2009. The worth i've built up to be for myself has dwindled down to its last penny. I've grown and matured to become a different person. One that you may see to your dislike but for me. I see it as myself growing into an adult. As i sit in on the dinning room table with the sound of a faint echo of my keys as i press my fingers against them i think to myself one thing. Why? The most commonly asked question in the world...Why? I sit her thinking Why am i crying? As i try to think about the reason why the constant sobbering and constant whimpering doesnt able me to clearly figure out the big picture. As i finally calm down and catch my breath it comes to my mind. I'm letting my self be eaten by my back of my mind. I'm too busy thinking about what i want and not what i probably need. Sometimes i wonder why do i always need to get even? when i always give the simple advice to other people "be the bigger person," meaning to not get even.. but to grow up and admit your wrongs and not to get back right. I keep telling myself i'm so overwhelmed with work and stressed with so many problematic situations.. when the only true answer is relax. Life is too short to sweat the small things and stress so much to grow bigger problems. If there's one thing i've learned in life that's "Love has nothing to do with looks, but everything to do with time, trust, and interest." I've learned that the most impatient people like myself need to learn to be patient. Although patience is a trait not easily learned.. but the irony about patience is that... You don't even know it but once you've learned to be patient, you understand that you we're patient in the beginning in order to realize that you were. Trust.. ahh one of the most common gift taken for granted. You can say that Trust is like the egg in the egg toss game. So fragile, on the outside but so filling inside. With the smallest crack can break it. Although i keep telling myself that i trust, i trust, i have nothing to worry about. I can't really admit to that but the one thing i can admit to is that i'm in the process of trusting. Is that a bad thing? not necessarily.. yes it'd be nice to gain someone's trust just like that but what's so good about that? Tell me someone who just easily trust you.. is that really better than someone who learns to complete trust you? Time is the core ingredient with everything as much as we want either time's clock to quicken or slow down. Time is and will always be the only constant. For love the ingredient is time..trust..time..intrest..time..infatuation..time..money..time..life..time..wants..time.... Time is the main ingredient with life. Using time with trust is not having the 'wants' to have someone trust you right now... but to want that person to find his/her right 'time' to complete trust you. With love time is an ingredient most commonly used with love. Because with love comes patience. Loving someone takes great courage. It takes great courage because Love, although the greatest gift of all, can be taken for granted or be used in vain. Love.. what is it? no one knows it.. but like the wind you can't see it or explain it.. but can only feel it. Love is like an amoeba.. it's in no shape or form but is molded and shaped between to halves and is the glue to make those halves whole.
Ahh my life. Crazy? yes. Normal? somewhat. Growing up i had an ironic life. I grew up fighting and being punished and beaten by my dad and loved and cherished by my mother. But once i grew up it seems as if my dad care's and loves me more and my mom is the one who beats and talks down to me. june 15, 1996, i was 13, and it was the day before my birthday. My mom was gone for a business trip again, for the 2nd year in a row and my dad looses his temper because of some miniscule thing i've done and my punishment was being driven the heart of the ghetto of norwalk on imperial and pioneer and left there. For the first time in my life i was kicked out of my house. Not only kicked out but driven somewhere blindfolded and left in the cold for hours lost and confused on where to go. for the first time. i've come out with this. But that night was a night to be remembered. I was 13 and i tried finding my way back home but to find myself to get lost in the "one ways" for the first time. And the only flash memory of being held at gunpoint breaking down in tears but to rescue my 8th grade school teacher had lived in the one ways and noticed me and came to my rescue. Feared until this day.. breaks my heart to know i've kept that inside for so long until this day my dad or mom or even brother doesn't even know of this event. Although my childhood with my father had seemed harsh or abrasive.. I'm glad to know that til this day my dad apologized for the bad times he put me through and showed me that he still wants to still try and by my dad. And i'm more than greatful for that. But since then the relationship that my mother and i have... have gone from mother and son.. to woman to man.. I've never been kicked out ever since that day but since i've been kicked out so many times the past few months it brings back the memories... ones not worth reminiscing.
To be honest i'm the type of person to say everything because my personal life is something that i don't like to reminisce most of the time.
It seems as if my life is the 2000 piece puzzle being solved in the family van. With every bump in the road.. a piece of my puzzle of my life is lost under the seat.. and i don't seem to try and gain that piece back. Year after Year has been a rough year. With the lost of my grandma last year nearing my birthday..and now the death of my other grandma just a week ago.. makes me wonder.. the same question.. why? Although with an sturdy, strong exterior lies within a feeble interior. What i mean by that is that when the time i do drop my rough exterior.. i just breakdown.
To describe myself in a paragraph i'd say i'm a very simple, plain, arrogant, stubborn, happy, selfish, annoying, nosey, caring, and loving person. When i say i'm simple i mean it referring to my style.. i love simple things and don't need no fancy shcamncy things. When i say i'm plain.. i mean it as.. i don't like to party.. club.. drink.. smoke weed.. or hook up with girls all the time.. the only thing i ever desire is just to chill. When i mean i'm arrogant its self- explanatory. When i say i'm stubborn i mean it because no matter how much i want to admit my wrong i don't because i don't want to be wrong. Happy because who doesn't love and want to be happy? selfish because when i want something i don't share. The other stuff you know i'm to lazy to explain but this is me.. The problem is that i worry and care to much sometimes that i let it get a hold of me.
i don't know this is a weird post.. it jumps here and there..
anyways.. Life.. i suck at it right now..
i suck because i've become "worth"less
i do want to just sleep forever sometimes.
1. The quality that renders something desirable, useful, or valuable:
Worth. pretty much we all know the word "worth" pertains to something that is valuable or desirable to someone. As of September 28, 2009. The worth i've built up to be for myself has dwindled down to its last penny. I've grown and matured to become a different person. One that you may see to your dislike but for me. I see it as myself growing into an adult. As i sit in on the dinning room table with the sound of a faint echo of my keys as i press my fingers against them i think to myself one thing. Why? The most commonly asked question in the world...Why? I sit her thinking Why am i crying? As i try to think about the reason why the constant sobbering and constant whimpering doesnt able me to clearly figure out the big picture. As i finally calm down and catch my breath it comes to my mind. I'm letting my self be eaten by my back of my mind. I'm too busy thinking about what i want and not what i probably need. Sometimes i wonder why do i always need to get even? when i always give the simple advice to other people "be the bigger person," meaning to not get even.. but to grow up and admit your wrongs and not to get back right. I keep telling myself i'm so overwhelmed with work and stressed with so many problematic situations.. when the only true answer is relax. Life is too short to sweat the small things and stress so much to grow bigger problems. If there's one thing i've learned in life that's "Love has nothing to do with looks, but everything to do with time, trust, and interest." I've learned that the most impatient people like myself need to learn to be patient. Although patience is a trait not easily learned.. but the irony about patience is that... You don't even know it but once you've learned to be patient, you understand that you we're patient in the beginning in order to realize that you were. Trust.. ahh one of the most common gift taken for granted. You can say that Trust is like the egg in the egg toss game. So fragile, on the outside but so filling inside. With the smallest crack can break it. Although i keep telling myself that i trust, i trust, i have nothing to worry about. I can't really admit to that but the one thing i can admit to is that i'm in the process of trusting. Is that a bad thing? not necessarily.. yes it'd be nice to gain someone's trust just like that but what's so good about that? Tell me someone who just easily trust you.. is that really better than someone who learns to complete trust you? Time is the core ingredient with everything as much as we want either time's clock to quicken or slow down. Time is and will always be the only constant. For love the ingredient is time..trust..time..intrest..time..infatuation..time..money..time..life..time..wants..time.... Time is the main ingredient with life. Using time with trust is not having the 'wants' to have someone trust you right now... but to want that person to find his/her right 'time' to complete trust you. With love time is an ingredient most commonly used with love. Because with love comes patience. Loving someone takes great courage. It takes great courage because Love, although the greatest gift of all, can be taken for granted or be used in vain. Love.. what is it? no one knows it.. but like the wind you can't see it or explain it.. but can only feel it. Love is like an amoeba.. it's in no shape or form but is molded and shaped between to halves and is the glue to make those halves whole.
Ahh my life. Crazy? yes. Normal? somewhat. Growing up i had an ironic life. I grew up fighting and being punished and beaten by my dad and loved and cherished by my mother. But once i grew up it seems as if my dad care's and loves me more and my mom is the one who beats and talks down to me. june 15, 1996, i was 13, and it was the day before my birthday. My mom was gone for a business trip again, for the 2nd year in a row and my dad looses his temper because of some miniscule thing i've done and my punishment was being driven the heart of the ghetto of norwalk on imperial and pioneer and left there. For the first time in my life i was kicked out of my house. Not only kicked out but driven somewhere blindfolded and left in the cold for hours lost and confused on where to go. for the first time. i've come out with this. But that night was a night to be remembered. I was 13 and i tried finding my way back home but to find myself to get lost in the "one ways" for the first time. And the only flash memory of being held at gunpoint breaking down in tears but to rescue my 8th grade school teacher had lived in the one ways and noticed me and came to my rescue. Feared until this day.. breaks my heart to know i've kept that inside for so long until this day my dad or mom or even brother doesn't even know of this event. Although my childhood with my father had seemed harsh or abrasive.. I'm glad to know that til this day my dad apologized for the bad times he put me through and showed me that he still wants to still try and by my dad. And i'm more than greatful for that. But since then the relationship that my mother and i have... have gone from mother and son.. to woman to man.. I've never been kicked out ever since that day but since i've been kicked out so many times the past few months it brings back the memories... ones not worth reminiscing.
To be honest i'm the type of person to say everything because my personal life is something that i don't like to reminisce most of the time.
It seems as if my life is the 2000 piece puzzle being solved in the family van. With every bump in the road.. a piece of my puzzle of my life is lost under the seat.. and i don't seem to try and gain that piece back. Year after Year has been a rough year. With the lost of my grandma last year nearing my birthday..and now the death of my other grandma just a week ago.. makes me wonder.. the same question.. why? Although with an sturdy, strong exterior lies within a feeble interior. What i mean by that is that when the time i do drop my rough exterior.. i just breakdown.
To describe myself in a paragraph i'd say i'm a very simple, plain, arrogant, stubborn, happy, selfish, annoying, nosey, caring, and loving person. When i say i'm simple i mean it referring to my style.. i love simple things and don't need no fancy shcamncy things. When i say i'm plain.. i mean it as.. i don't like to party.. club.. drink.. smoke weed.. or hook up with girls all the time.. the only thing i ever desire is just to chill. When i mean i'm arrogant its self- explanatory. When i say i'm stubborn i mean it because no matter how much i want to admit my wrong i don't because i don't want to be wrong. Happy because who doesn't love and want to be happy? selfish because when i want something i don't share. The other stuff you know i'm to lazy to explain but this is me.. The problem is that i worry and care to much sometimes that i let it get a hold of me.
i don't know this is a weird post.. it jumps here and there..
anyways.. Life.. i suck at it right now..
i suck because i've become "worth"less
i do want to just sleep forever sometimes.
September 22, 2009
Stresss
I'm starting feel and beginning to believe that I can't do this nursing thing..soany things to learn and cram I'm and to memorize. Especially discourging comments from my mom and brother makes me wonder maybe I can't do this I've failed or given up on majority of things in my life and with no encouragment I'm starting to think I can't even to this nursing isn't as easy as it seems. I want to give up and just find my ethopia..I'm studying my book and doing my hw an it seems like when I feel like I've done so much when in reality ivE only barely scratced the surface of it..ugh..doing it alone is hard and depressing.. It even made it so much harder when I talked to my dad and hearing him trying to tell me I can do it when I know deep in his heart is filled with the financial tribulations and expensive amounts of debt bring him almost to the point of depression. Hearing from my aunt informing me that my dad is not the same person e used to be.. And now that makes me cry to know I can't do anything about it..it's been one day and I'm already exhausted it's so stupid how I cry while I'm trying to do my hw...I hate myself for being weak...I'm never gonna make it with nursing I should just quit..
September 14, 2009
real talk
She was a young preteen obsessed with magazines
Always watched the model scene on the television screen
Looked up in the mirror and the only thing she seen
Was a fat and ugly body never thought she was queen
Squeezed into her jeans and all she could was scream
Spent all her daddys money on the lotions and the creams
Man she spent a fortune never had reinforcement
daddy never hugged her cuz her parents were divorced and
when she ate she forced it, or cut it into portions
then spent the rest of the night just clutchin to the porcelain
she used to be so pure but she gave the intercourse
to a dude thats abusive cuz she feels so insecure
hes cheatin and the beats her but they never gonna break up
cuz when her eyes are black and blue she just covers it make up
the companies be lyin just so they can get they cake up
cmon baby look youre beautiful you need to wake up
just letting the one most important person in my life.
that even if what i have to say might not change your mind.
here's some lyrics to a song..
baby you're beautiful please understand that you are the most gorgeous woman i've ever seen.
no ones beauty can out do yours. and its not because i love you loving you is just an extra gift.
you're beauty.. is something no one can top.
you're beautiful from head to toe.. pleaaase believe that.
don't hurt yourself with thoughts of dislike..or disgust.
you're beauty to me grows each day i see you.
i love you baby :)
Always watched the model scene on the television screen
Looked up in the mirror and the only thing she seen
Was a fat and ugly body never thought she was queen
Squeezed into her jeans and all she could was scream
Spent all her daddys money on the lotions and the creams
Man she spent a fortune never had reinforcement
daddy never hugged her cuz her parents were divorced and
when she ate she forced it, or cut it into portions
then spent the rest of the night just clutchin to the porcelain
she used to be so pure but she gave the intercourse
to a dude thats abusive cuz she feels so insecure
hes cheatin and the beats her but they never gonna break up
cuz when her eyes are black and blue she just covers it make up
the companies be lyin just so they can get they cake up
cmon baby look youre beautiful you need to wake up
just letting the one most important person in my life.
that even if what i have to say might not change your mind.
here's some lyrics to a song..
baby you're beautiful please understand that you are the most gorgeous woman i've ever seen.
no ones beauty can out do yours. and its not because i love you loving you is just an extra gift.
you're beauty.. is something no one can top.
you're beautiful from head to toe.. pleaaase believe that.
don't hurt yourself with thoughts of dislike..or disgust.
you're beauty to me grows each day i see you.
i love you baby :)
September 5, 2009
5 years
it's been 5 years since i've gotten to talk to my cousin jeff the way i did today..5 long years since we've cried in front of each other. The only time we both felt so low. I needed this today.
a reminder to myself to be strong and pray.
although we both struggle in our own battles.
we've learned that no matter what just face the problem head on instead of trying to find something to do to get our minds off of it.
i love my cousin. Thank you for spilling your heart to me. Hearing what tribulations are going through in your life help me realize..i just need to be strong..
a reminder to myself to be strong and pray.
although we both struggle in our own battles.
we've learned that no matter what just face the problem head on instead of trying to find something to do to get our minds off of it.
i love my cousin. Thank you for spilling your heart to me. Hearing what tribulations are going through in your life help me realize..i just need to be strong..
August 26, 2009
what a night...
probably the worst night for me..
made a big mistake.
hurt important people.
and to put the cherry on top..
i come home around 2 am
with my clothes..
belongings...
comforter
outside my front door like a yard sale.
so i decided to sleep in hacienda.
god. help me.
made a big mistake.
hurt important people.
and to put the cherry on top..
i come home around 2 am
with my clothes..
belongings...
comforter
outside my front door like a yard sale.
so i decided to sleep in hacienda.
god. help me.
August 21, 2009
August 19, 2009
heavy heart
Lately..my hearts been heavy not because of what i've said or done but what people have told me. My mind is filled up like the 405 on its busiest day. Why is it this way? I don't know.
My hearts heavy because i dont know....my minds filled because i don't know...
i want to vent but don't know what words to say.
i'm lost in translation...
My hearts heavy because i dont know....my minds filled because i don't know...
i want to vent but don't know what words to say.
i'm lost in translation...
im not important.
At this time you are feeling ‘uptight’ and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been ‘hard done by’ and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. Your are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn’t too different.
You are a fighter and always on the defensive. You always need to be sure that your position is safe and established. When you finally make a decision you will pursue it to the bitter end in spite of all opposition.
You honestly believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, but there seems to be no one around to give you the necessary reassurance and encouragement. You are egocentric. You believe that you are always ‘right’ - well maybe you are but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.
The tension that you are experiencing at this time is perhaps due to physical and/or mental frustration. It would appear that you are not appreciated and as a consequence, the situation is most disagreeable. You seek personal recognition and the appreciation of others to compensate for the lack of like minded people with whom to ally yourself. You would like to surrender and merge with others but your inherent self-restraint makes it difficult for you to open up. This disturbs you as you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You want to be liked, admired and appreciated for yourself.
You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.
You are a fighter and always on the defensive. You always need to be sure that your position is safe and established. When you finally make a decision you will pursue it to the bitter end in spite of all opposition.
You honestly believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, but there seems to be no one around to give you the necessary reassurance and encouragement. You are egocentric. You believe that you are always ‘right’ - well maybe you are but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.
The tension that you are experiencing at this time is perhaps due to physical and/or mental frustration. It would appear that you are not appreciated and as a consequence, the situation is most disagreeable. You seek personal recognition and the appreciation of others to compensate for the lack of like minded people with whom to ally yourself. You would like to surrender and merge with others but your inherent self-restraint makes it difficult for you to open up. This disturbs you as you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You want to be liked, admired and appreciated for yourself.
You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.
August 15, 2009
Sooo many
Technology has it's grasp on the world like a vice grip.. Social networks spreading through the Internet like a virus...although it has it's pros and cons but at what audacity can a social network make or break a person. Social networks like myspace..Twitter ... Facebook ... Etc. Have taken up the lives of many people. Causingthem to loose the lust of a genuine conversation or personality or the choices easily made over certain things just to post a bulletin or write on someone wall or tweet..etc. The point of a social network is to stay in touch with people or in some peoples cases meeting people. I mean cmon when have the words myspace, Twitter, and facebook been accepted in automatic spellcheck or even in te English dictionary. It's sad how I can easily misspell Twitter and there's already an auto correction? Lol I'm not hating it's just there have been so many new faces of social networks it's become ridiculous.. Although I have them I've learned to tone it down so that my life isn't overwhelmed or overtaken by them
a little piece of my mind
a little piece of my mind
August 6, 2009
ugh...
niice video i love this song i've been wanting to watch this.
as my status..
just nonchalant.
sleeeep is great..
besides the moments before and after you sleep.
oh how frustration is a bitch
have a swell evening
as my status..
just nonchalant.
sleeeep is great..
besides the moments before and after you sleep.
oh how frustration is a bitch
have a swell evening
August 1, 2009
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