emotional circus

dear ?,

as i sit here to think about what may lay forth in front of me in the future i sit and relax reminiscing on what past I've encrypted in my own personal history book. Because we all create our own history books in our mind so that one day, when that day comes, to sit down or lay down and just think about history. And when to think about it we don't think so that we can regret what past mistakes we've made, but to ensure ourselves, that we have been living the life that has made us whoever we've become at its present.

Fulton Oursler once said:

“Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves - regret for the past and fear of the future.”

Although it's seems impossible to live a life without having any regrets, nothing is ever impossible because whatever you wish to achieve can be reached only if the determination in one's mind is so sure-shot to make one believe that the impossible is possible. What Fulton Oursler was trying to explain was that pretty much the two things that steal us away from being happy, are the regret for the past and fear of the future. When we must all learn and understand that one must not dwell on what past we've paved because what was behind us are just bittersweet memories, and that the only feeling we should feel towards are future is not fear...but the feeling of excitement. joy. undying happiness. Because why fear to see the future? when another day given to us is a gift. A gift we must cherish carefully and not recklessly. Thats why we must not fear our future but grab on to the courage we all hold within ourselves to just embrace it and do nothing but just live it. Day by day.

But although there might be certain aspects in life that may bring us down..make us sad, cry, mad, or hate the very existence of ourselves. It's okay to feel these emotions because this is what feelings, us as human beings, carry upon ourselves. So theres nothing we can do to stop these feelings so we must learn to put a solution at the end of the problem. We must learn to overcome these feelings because negative feelings are the worst feelings to feel. We must learn that when your sad we have something that makes us happy, when we're mad we have someone to cool us down, when were crying you have something or someone there to stop the tears. Our emotions cannot be controlled by anyone else but ourselves. That's why we must be courageous with our emotions, and learn that no matter whatever someone might tell you not to.. Us as individuals know when...its okay for us to feel the way we do.


I personally know i've made some big mistakes in life...but i do not dwell on them but learn.. i learned so that i could better my character rather than batter myself with regrets and mistakes. I learned to open my eyes and understand.




p.s. i miss macario papa