what a night...

probably the worst night for me..
made a big mistake.
hurt important people.

and to put the cherry on top..

i come home around 2 am
with my clothes..
belongings...
comforter
outside my front door like a yard sale.
so i decided to sleep in hacienda.


god. help me.

cuatro?

HAPPY 4 MONTHS LOVE OF MY LIFE :)

heavy heart

Lately..my hearts been heavy not because of what i've said or done but what people have told me. My mind is filled up like the 405 on its busiest day. Why is it this way? I don't know.

My hearts heavy because i dont know....my minds filled because i don't know...

i want to vent but don't know what words to say.

i'm lost in translation...

im not important.

At this time you are feeling ‘uptight’ and you are urgently in need of rest and relaxation; but perhaps even more than that you need to overcome that feeling that you have been ‘hard done by’ and treated with a complete lack of consideration. Maybe you have, but whatever may have been the cause of your inherent anxiety, you regard the situation as intolerable. Your are, however, sufficiently competent to turn that situation around - you have overcome similar problems in the past, and really this one isn’t too different.

You are a fighter and always on the defensive. You always need to be sure that your position is safe and established. When you finally make a decision you will pursue it to the bitter end in spite of all opposition.

You honestly believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, but there seems to be no one around to give you the necessary reassurance and encouragement. You are egocentric. You believe that you are always ‘right’ - well maybe you are but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.

The tension that you are experiencing at this time is perhaps due to physical and/or mental frustration. It would appear that you are not appreciated and as a consequence, the situation is most disagreeable. You seek personal recognition and the appreciation of others to compensate for the lack of like minded people with whom to ally yourself. You would like to surrender and merge with others but your inherent self-restraint makes it difficult for you to open up. This disturbs you as you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You want to be liked, admired and appreciated for yourself.

You would like to be respected and valued for yourself and this can only be achieved from within a close and harmonious relationship.

Sooo many

Technology has it's grasp on the world like a vice grip.. Social networks spreading through the Internet like a virus...although it has it's pros and cons but at what audacity can a social network make or break a person. Social networks like myspace..Twitter ... Facebook ... Etc. Have taken up the lives of many people. Causingthem to loose the lust of a genuine conversation or personality or the choices easily made over certain things just to post a bulletin or write on someone wall or tweet..etc. The point of a social network is to stay in touch with people or in some peoples cases meeting people. I mean cmon when have the words myspace, Twitter, and facebook been accepted in automatic spellcheck or even in te English dictionary. It's sad how I can easily misspell Twitter and there's already an auto correction? Lol I'm not hating it's just there have been so many new faces of social networks it's become ridiculous.. Although I have them I've learned to tone it down so that my life isn't overwhelmed or overtaken by them

a little piece of my mind

ugh...

niice video i love this song i've been wanting to watch this.



as my status..
just nonchalant.
sleeeep is great..
besides the moments before and after you sleep.



oh how frustration is a bitch
have a swell evening

i want to start skating again

jeff gimme my board