today

ohhhhh.....i'm smitten

Great Few days..

So past days i've been busy spending time with some of my closest of relatives and a few other significant others...I went to the hollywood bowl about 2 days ago with my auntie elsa and kuya jay and his cousin and my brother to watch a jazz concert that i expeceted to be not that great but matter of fact i had the time of my life. The concert was at the hollywood bowl if you've ever been there, there are a lot of people who drink wine and have picnics at the bowl...and the cool thing was that my brother and i were able to meet other people of our age group and it was cool knowing someone else had a little culture..as my uncle would say it..

- Culture:

the tastes in art and manners that are favored by a social group

Sooooo anywhooo at the bowl me and my brother were able to do some pretty cool stuff like wine test and stuff because there were a good handful of booths and/or tables that had different variety of wines and it was pretty cool they didn't card me :)....well the person we saw at the concert was solomon burke who through time has created a name for himself on the wall of great jazz artist and we were finally able to see why..but the best part was seeing etta james who is a jazz legend and the one of the few jazz legends of her time still living today..she performed one of (im sure most people know this song) at last...and it was even better live!

we'll i'm done blogging for now its payday today :) so i'm goanna go grab my paycheck
good bye!

Wonderful Day..

so today was a good day :)


but embarasssing at the same time... all because someone couldn't wait to get home to read what i gave them....gooosh so impatient.


and thaank you for visiting haney <33

damn shes cute huh

welll today was a good day at work and at home sooo thats goooood :)

okay bye

Old thoughts brought back to mind..

june 27, 2007

Dear ?


Life....it's a BITCH for me... though i walk outside of my house visualizing a life i hope to life and predict the outcome of my day to be great life just turns around and gives me the cold shoulder...there have been many instances in my life that have impacted me in such a way were i feel like there is no escape for me. I've been going through a lot in my life because of the difficulties i'm presently going through. Tons, MILLIONS of things are going through my mind and life...things like the fear of loosing those i love most.. not matter who in everyone's lifetime someone is bound to find that one true love or that unconditional love you have with certain people in your family. When i was aware of the diagnosis of my aunt who was diagnosed with cancer. My heart shattered knowing i might loose someone who has been like a second mother to me. And when i found out a few months later that my other aunt was diagnosed with cervical cancer, i felt like a sledge hammer had smashed my heart in pieces so small that there would be no longer any chance of rebuilding it. And now being aware of the condition of my parents unstable relationship falling apart everyday of my life. I know for some it might be like "it's okay my parents split too." but the majority of those who have parents who've split probably split while you were still young. But i know for a fact there are still those handful of people who are loosing the safety of having two parents at late stages of there life. Its hard for anyone to grow up not having the charisma of a mother or protection of a father. One parent can't fulfill the duties one of the two halves could. For me life is like the deep blue ocean(the abyss as they call it) it's unknown it's something no one will able to perceive because we don't know what is ahead of us the deeper we swim down to the bottom..and like the ocean going through life is rougher and rougher each step we take forward..like the ocean each time you swim a couple feet lower the pressure becomes so unbearable that it crushes our bodies making it difficult for us to move forward. Like life with every step we take we take on conflicts, decisions, hardships, and love.

• conflicts - the stress errupters. conflicts is what we may go through in life that interfere with our life and we have to solve.

• decisions - the choices we have to make to better ourselves.
• Hardships - the troughs we may go through
• love - the last but definitely not least, the love we have for our family, friends, and special ones.

Freedom is not worth having if it does not include the freedom to make mistakes.

-Mahatma Gandhi

As Gandhi said it, freedom is not worth having if it does not include the freedom to make mistakes... i believe the key ideal of living life is to make mistakes and learn from it.. because if you live you're life without making mistakes how else would you know how to live it the right way or to the best of your ability... though we make mistakes there is also forgiveness for those mistakes you made. Though how great the penalty or dire the situation like Cherrie Carter-Scott said...Anger makes you smaller, while forgiveness forces you to grow beyond what you were. Though how great one man or womans wisdom can be how do we know whether or not it is really worth forgiving? The only way to really know is through self perspective.. The gravity of one's mistake cannot be altered through our owns hands but only be over looked through time. Though how much you wish you can pull back the time though the physics of time won't allow us to do so. With the past mistakes we must not hold grudges for decades to come but let the healing process overtake your mind and allow yourself to forget. Though the level or extremeness the mistake was we should not allow it to reach it apex to the point where we make decisions based on the grudge we have.