fuckenn early

its so fucken early and i haven't slept yet...
and today i haave class form 9:45-11:10 then work at 3:30 to close...i know if i take a nap at home i probably won't wake up so i have to stay up allllll day...
i hope its not busy today at work...pleease...don't come to pinkberry rowland heights if so i'll probably be sleeping in the back..peeeace


p.s. i want to go to Uganda...but i'm not goanna lie i'm scared to.

Norwaaaalk

today was a coo day....slept in and shit work up at liiike 3:30pm ( yes i can sleep like a bear ) cousin came over with his girlfriend and we played some 2k9 but it was frustrating not being able to win fuuck...fuck that shit.. lol then went to chill with my brother over in walnut to get a drink at ten rens...then stopped by the mall to drop off a drink to some cool chick then my cousin got his ears re-pierced hahaha and you can tell he was about to cry hahahahah anyhoooo shits was coool came back to my pad to kicck it for a bit and they were about to leave soo i decided to tag along cause i didn't wanna be bored at home..i went back to norwalk with em and we were just chillen watching smoking aces and having a little skate sesh..lol then we attempted to maake a video but i wasn't landing my shit..sadly the only time i was...was when i had a cigarette in my hand lol but i'm not goanna try and look cool smoking while skating cause i'm just goanna look dumb...well then we just kiccked it for a bit and watched some more movies and the homie ryan asked if we wanted to smoke a cigg and chill for a bit.. it was cool catching up and just remembering that i still owed that fool $20 bucks for a diablo 2 account i bought from him hahahahhhahhaha fuck he said "just be my friend forever" hahahaha i guess my friendship is cheap...sad.. lol well yea then i went home and i think i'm going to make a peanut butter sandwich cause i'm huuuungry



well yea...chillin in norwalk makes me wonder..."what if i never moved to hacienda heights.." alot of shit would probably never happened...but i guess you can say everything happens for a reason..and it'd be cool if i were to move back i guess...well iono im kinda settled here..

well thats enough cause i can't think anymore...lol

p.s. loook up "Save the Trestles" for all you surf lovers..its to help prevent the construction of the new toll road..i mean cmon yea...easier transportation..but you gotta preserve some of gods beauty to the world..and besides..who doesn't like surfing? never tried it? you should its fuuuuuuuuun

Night out in LA

soo today was dope auntie elsie and kuya jay took me and my brother out to the LA auto show and it was fuccken doope soo maaany dope cars







just a couple of the hot cars there
then we mooved along to go eat some boomb ass shabu shabu in little tokyo



the owner of shabu shabu was dope and funny





but before i went to this spot

who woulda known it the stores really called Archrival lol

but i haad a bomb time in la too lazy to get crazy with pictures

thaaanksgiving!

happy thanksgiving..well technically its over but whatever..black friday?!
yeaa right i'm going to fall in line i'm probably goanna just be a late shopper lol
LA auto show tomorrow with the cousin and big bruddah mang...fun!

one thing i wish for...is that i wish i fucken PACKED MY HARO!!! when i moved to hacienda....waaacckkk guess i'm going to buy another.
and i want a shirt from atlas skateboards!!

dope shiiet


i wouldnt mind the deck either my old ones starting to break on me.

its been a while

so its surely been a while since i've written in this because iono i kinda got lazy lol well yea thanksgiving is just around the corner and i really dont have big plans for it...it doesnt seem like its the same anymore during this time of holiday. Not seeing all the cousins and chilling with them and shit but oh well..i guess this is what happens when your parents don't get along with siblings...

anywhooo few things i'm excited for is black friday! i know theres going to be a lot of dope black friday sales cause we all know its the worst but best time to shop for the holidays..and plus black friday the hundreds are having a sale so i'm definitely going to try and go to that. if your going i'll probably see you there....another thing i'm looking forward to..is my brothers birthday because my mom is treating me and my brother out to three days in the big apple and i'm excited wooo! well this is enough..peeeeace and hope to see the lovely green lady soon!

ahhahahaha everything on the dollar menu

same guy some more funny shit

trying to study for mid terms

but i just kept watching youtube vids and i came across this one
ahahhahahahahhaha its so funny





ahahaha majority of his shit is kinda true hahah

random ass skate session

well today was yet another fucken day..
but it was pretty cool actually after work me and a couple of good homies/coworkers hit up the gym to play some ball and work out some but we ended up not doing thaat much and chillin in the front...we we're just chillen in the front at my homie tonys truck just chillen when all of a sudden i thought hmm..i'm going to whip out my skateboard..then the homie ralph just bounces at it and starts tearing it up for a bit..and lemme tell you for someone who's been off the skate scene for a long time..this foool can still grip that tape.

so afterwards me and the homie tony and ralph decide to go to seven eleven and get a slurpee then hit up a spot that ralph used to hit up back in the day and it was some ledge that he use to kill back in the day and that fool was still able to hit that shit..and my ass did a puny 2 stair (waaack) but whatever i'm trying ot get back in the game too ya know? well anyways we went to a four stair and ralph just decided to clear that shit but i pussied out on hahah whaatever..well we we're just chillin and some korean dude in about his late 40's early 50's was walking in the plaza we we're at and he decided to chit chat for a bit and he was just jib jabbering abotu out some 24 hour tofu house use to haave a bunch of drunk koreans and what not and that they would get in a lot of fights and shit....he told us of a fight that went down with 4 drunk korean guys and some chinese dude and how the chinese dude won hahahaha pretty funny and we were talking about what schoools we go to and shit and i told him i went to Mt. Sac and he whipped out his old fucken id aahahahah this fool had a mullet and everything pretty funny.. well yea...and let's see..

today at work was chill as fuck with me the homie taylor and ralph closing..around liike 10:30 it was super slow so me, ralph and taylor decide to chill out in the front and just eat and smoke..and my friend tony and anthony came by so we we're all just chillen and just about 3 or 4 customers showed up but we decided to chit chat a little bit with them and it was cool we came up on tip last night so it was all good..

soo we learned good customer service and some gooooood small talk got us good tips :)


peace i'm going to attempt to sleep before my 9:45 class...ha i hope i wake up :X



p.s. kanye west performed a new song from his new album coming out called "heartless" at the ONE event during the DNC (Democratic National Convention) the track sounds pretty siick even though its live and have muffly but here's the vid hope you enjoy :)


kanye proves you don't have to have a good voice...to sing well ahahahah :) or make a hit track

goodnight

Album You Should Pick Up

Murs new album!!

Murs For President




and if you don't know who murs is..i'm sure you've heard this hit


so go buy it!

Ten days...

soo...i'm trying my hardest to update this but im usually only in the mood to do this either when i'm really happy...or trying to get my mind of things and to vent...but the only thing i have to write in here...is just the fact that i feel so fucken left out...i'm in a relationship were let's just say i've been putting out all the effort to call say hello...or just hang out...i know many of my good friends tell me some things i don't want to hear about because it just gets me down in the dumps..but i know i clearly told on of my closest friends that i trust my girlfriend and i know shes just busy...and some of my friends tell me that i should just wait for her to call but..its tough..theres soo many different emotions running around my heart and so many different thoughts scattered around my mind..like one in my heart tells me that i miss her sooo bad but at the same time i try to let her know that and i still don't get a single phone call...or even small text.. in my mind im scaring myself because i wish and hoped that things would not change from the time before school started but i know that it won't change unless i let it change...UGHHHHHHHHHHHH.........i miss you so much...its heart wrenching to feel this way...


today i find myself just constantly finding these little hints and shit and it bothers me it's like everywere i go to find some peace away from the stress of missing someone so much for some reason the stress is right there or theres just a little reminder of "why" i'm trying to find some peace and stress relief.. like this morning..i woke up fuccken twice because i thought i was talking to her...and i found myself just waking up to seeing my phone lying on the dresser...and when i went to the living room to watch some tv a stupid ass song about "missing someone" came on so i turned it off and called some of my friends to see if they would be able to get things off my mind...but when we went to eat at banana bay it was love song after love song playing and it was just tooo much!

if you're reading this...whoever you are..if you know the pain and sorrow i'm going through right now...pleease...tell me how you're coping with it...because the way i feel right now...is like someone in quicksand..cause no matter how hard i try to get my way out of this pain and stress...i just keep plunging deeper and deeper in...like seriously...i wouldn't be in this much pain if i didn't care soooo much and deeply for someone or if that someone wasn't so special to me...

i just wish....she only knew the pain i go through everyday to just wanna hear her voice on the other line...left and right there have been tons of my close friends who are now getting themselves into there own relationships..and it makes me jealous because i used to be the one all sprung at the sight of a text message...all giddy at the site of her face as she would walk into work...or in complete shock in awe by what suprise she had in store awaiting for me later that evening..i miss soooo much...she is someone so dear to me that i can't BELIEVE i'm letting myself stress about this and be in this kind of pain over her....


i guess its because shes that special...and i know in my heart no matter what someone says about her or whatever i trust her....

Insomnia

its about 3:43 am right now and my insomnia is barely kicking in so i decided fucck i have a blog that i don't even write in and that i SHOULD be writing in this shit...

so for all you readers who've been reading my shit let me just update you blog readers on the life of me...well of course you do read this shit because you either want to know..."what's happening in chad's life.." (only because you care and hopefully not cause your some stalker) or "I like what chad's into let's see whaat he's into today..." and knowing the lazy fuck that i am...i'm going to start to update this shit as much as possible on my daily obstacles or whatever the fuck is on my mind...so to start things off...my life...let's see i'd rather not track back and give you updates on what already happened and has been long looked past..soo let's start off with today!..

Today...i was just sleeping throughout the whole fuccken day...because i love sleeping...i first woke up around 9ish then went back to sleep so i hit the snooze then woke up at 12...then snooze...then 3...then snooze again when i finally noticed the time said 5:40pm and i told myself "get the fuck up" because i realized that i wasted my fucken day...but what was to waste? i had no plans no nothing..just another lazy boring day..not even a single text or call from my girlfriend who i haven't spoken to for about a little over a week now and let me tell you it sucks...i woke up hoping to see whether or not my girlfriend called...but i check my phone to only be filled with sad sad emotions knowing i had gotten not a SINGLE missed call or text from her...and it sucks...like i know some of you might think like..."fuck chad i think she's cheating on you" or.."dang i guess someone doesn't really like you.." but you know what i say...FUCK YOU! because seriously...a person like me....its easy to gain my trust...but also easy to loose it..and right now i trust her with all i got...although i'm not goanna sit here and lie to you and say that i haven't twisted shit in the back of my mind from time to time..but hey...who doesn't? truth of the matter is...i trust her and i only hope that she'd call me so i can see her or something...i really just want to talk her or see her...

anywho....around 6:00pm was my hunt to look for something to do...i started to call the people i know i'd have a good time doing absolutely nothing with and the one and only ride or die homie came through..my cousin jeff...jeff is like a brother to me and i would do absolutely anything for him and i know he'd do the same but i guess you can say that about pretty much all of my cousins...well the one's on my mom's side...because we've built such a bond that can never be broken..although our parents don't talk to each other even with the passing of my grandma Juanita Virata Papa...it wasn't enough to break the quarrels..but it won't stop us from chilling and hanging out..well anyways...i drove to norwalk to kick it with my cousin and his girlfriend.. and on the back of my mind i'm constantly checking my phone to see if my girlfriend responded but still nothing..well yea...then we drove to south and gridley to just kick it and have a good time but we ended up just staying there for a little bit then going to carl's jr. because milani kept talking about food and it got jeff hungry hhahahah as fat as that sounds that was hilarious.. lol well anyways let's see...then my cousin jeff was telling me that one of our homies Jackson got stabbed in westminister at a party or whatever for a dumbass reason and i thought that was dumb ass fuck...and my prayers are with him to get better...well after a good long talk we decided to chill at Guppy's in cerritos to kick it with our bestfriend Raisa..(love you BFF even though i've been flaking sorry :( ) but yea we were just chillen then we had a good time catching up and such but he night had to end after that so after we hung out for a little bit we when back to jeff's pad and i decided to stay a while because i didn't want to go home just yet....then i get a phone call from my cousin joanna because she was scared that someone had broken into her house and that someone was following her home because someone just randomly parked on the front of her driveway behind her blocking it...so in panic my cousin edsel, jeff, and milani come driving there with intentions of fucking someone up so we all had a steel pipe or bat..or in my case a laminate roll (hey..that shit is hard as fuck so don't hate :)) so we drive there pull up and see the car behind joanna's and we walk out of my car holding what we brought and then me and jeff see it's a girl...and we go towards her to ask her wtf she was doing and it was all a misunderstanding cause she was waiting for someone across the street so we simply asked her ot park elsewhere..and then joanna tells us that her brothers weren't answering her phone calls so we walk towards her house because the garage door was wide open and the front door was unlocked...we walk in the room was dark and we were checking if anyone was in there and we just find her brothers sleeping in bed....oh joanna...we wouldn't have gone through the trouble if we didn't love you so much...but anyways that was a story to laugh about well after that i took them home and we decided to watch saw 2 and it was a trip...and nasty too..but after that i went home...and i remember getting a text message from my mom during the day asking "how are you?hope your doing well! come talk to me when your home! love mom!" at first i was scared something might've came up soo i was scared but i told myself i'm goanna be a good son and talk to her i found her sleeping in her room and went to see if she was asleep but when i got closer she woke up for a little bit..then we just chit chatted for a little bit all because she was just worried..then after that i kissed my mom goodnight and went upstairs....


as i was laying in bed i was just watching a couple youtube vids hoping my insomnia would fade away and let me just sleep for once! but yet again another sleepless night....so yea..anyhoo i was jumping around videos and i came up on a skate video of a rider for chocolate/girl skateboards..by the name of sean malto...and let me tell you that i've found my new favorite rider...this kid is soo dope and talented that the way he skates makes everything look so easy and fun it makes you wanna just go out and skate!!..one video i found inspirational was a clip of Sean Malto in We're Ok EurOk which was a chocolate/girl skateboard collabo i think of there riders taking up the streets of europe and there were a lot of dope clips of good riders but i found the clips of sean malto to be the best..and the video i watched on youtube was an edited verson with just a few tweaks and a was edited witha different song...called The First Song by Band Of Horses...which i've been listening to since the beginning of this blog and let me tell you this song is dope as fuck..

here's Sean Malto's Clip in "We're Ok EurOk" with The First Song by Band of Horses..



pretty dope eh?

well anyhoo..i'm goanna take a quick smoke break before i continue on this mess..but DON'T START THINKING i'm some heavy smoker..
because i'm not :) i've cut back and i'm quitting slowly but surely

okay i'm back

well i just got off the phone with my BFF and we had a good talk i'm glad i got to tell her some shit and update her on my life..

well anyhoo...damn i say that shit alot hahahaha well..whaatevs.. well anyhoo :) haney if your reading.... this you still give me butterflies if your 30 miles away :) no one has replaced you :)oh and yess that is my scruffy face lol i havent shaved so yea hahahah and thats a lip piercing not a pimple if you fuccckers thought it was hahahahah :)


OH i just remembered i work at pinkberry and i was working with my homie ralph the other shift lead over there and we were just chillen holding it down for all non fat frozen yogurt lovers in the 626 and some guy comes in with some scifen shirt and big black framed glasses and a fitted so i thought hmm..this guy might be into the whole..skater/street culture shit..so i ask the guy "ayy do you ever shop on karmaloop?" and this guy tells me "nahhh that shit is played out" and thinking in my mind "WHAT A FUCCKEN BITCH" (only because i'm on the karmaloop street team lol) man oh man......he said karmaloop was played out...but thats his own honest opinion and i don't blame him but tell me this...if something get's played out because one main reason and that reason being...TOO MANY PEOPLE KNOW ABOUT IT...i think thats fuccken dumb..thats the dumbest reason to say something is played out....the whole IDEA of someone either putting a website up to sell dope clothes at affordable prices..(but still exspensive i'm not goanna lie.. hahaha ) or start a clothing there own clothing brand relating to the whole skate/street scene...is dumb..people who tell someone that if they start there own brand or put up there own website or anything and that shit get's poppin and someone has the mouth to say it's played out once a lot of people know about it is stupidity at its best..i think if a brand or whatever get's poppin let that shit POP! the whole idea of "man that fool has my shit" or "i dont want it because someone else has it" is stupid...we live in a world were too many people think too much of what other people think..as sad as it is..its true..i'm not goanna sit here and lie say i never thought that cause i did but i learned...you know what if someone else has the same shirt, shoes, skateboard, jeans, hat...then you know they got fuccken DOPE TASTE! instead of saying "aww that fool has my shit" think of it as a good way say "ohh that fool got taste" hahaha cause one...if you haven't made it your own...you can't say it was yours in the first place..and second..i'm sure whoever designed it or created it..wanted to share their idea and spread the love like spreading the peanut butter on the bread...cause the more you have of it the better it is.. but you know what..thats my little piece of mind on it...soo you guys who say shits played out...keep on saying it its what you think but all i'm saying is...theres less conflict out there if we were only not too stubborn to think positive......i know every individual wishes to stand out in there own way..trust me..i know...but you know we do stand out..if it doesn't show with our clothes or pricey whips...to taste in music...we all stand out with our personality...and i'd rather be one dope individual who was known to have a dope personality than dope style anyday..


as my brown anorexic friend once said “A man is but the product of his thoughts what he thinks, he becomes.” -Mahatma Ghandi


p.s. snowboarding season is sooooooon!

goodnight :(

well today.. was a cool day because i got to help get my mind off things that have been bothering me alot lately...like in reality i always thought life was goanna be easy but it isn't at all...soo..lets see i thought i'd write here to rant a little bit so here i go...

life is tough! like seriously a lot of shit is going on in my life but i can't help but let it bother me..i've been thinking and with the help of cat and tony i need a new perspective on life...i just wish i can really do it...like so much stuff has been hurting me a lot but i keep it bundled up inside and i can't help but let it build but with the help of good friends and a good talk..

i feel like i haven't been really putting in the effort in life..i wish i could but im soo new to things...like iono i probably need to talk to that person...i cant write so i'm done..



i miss my baby so much

just another day

just another day :(

i'll write more but i just felt like i needed to say something in here i'll probably update it again when i get back from the gym.

today

ohhhhh.....i'm smitten

Great Few days..

So past days i've been busy spending time with some of my closest of relatives and a few other significant others...I went to the hollywood bowl about 2 days ago with my auntie elsa and kuya jay and his cousin and my brother to watch a jazz concert that i expeceted to be not that great but matter of fact i had the time of my life. The concert was at the hollywood bowl if you've ever been there, there are a lot of people who drink wine and have picnics at the bowl...and the cool thing was that my brother and i were able to meet other people of our age group and it was cool knowing someone else had a little culture..as my uncle would say it..

- Culture:

the tastes in art and manners that are favored by a social group

Sooooo anywhooo at the bowl me and my brother were able to do some pretty cool stuff like wine test and stuff because there were a good handful of booths and/or tables that had different variety of wines and it was pretty cool they didn't card me :)....well the person we saw at the concert was solomon burke who through time has created a name for himself on the wall of great jazz artist and we were finally able to see why..but the best part was seeing etta james who is a jazz legend and the one of the few jazz legends of her time still living today..she performed one of (im sure most people know this song) at last...and it was even better live!

we'll i'm done blogging for now its payday today :) so i'm goanna go grab my paycheck
good bye!

Wonderful Day..

so today was a good day :)


but embarasssing at the same time... all because someone couldn't wait to get home to read what i gave them....gooosh so impatient.


and thaank you for visiting haney <33

damn shes cute huh

welll today was a good day at work and at home sooo thats goooood :)

okay bye

Old thoughts brought back to mind..

june 27, 2007

Dear ?


Life....it's a BITCH for me... though i walk outside of my house visualizing a life i hope to life and predict the outcome of my day to be great life just turns around and gives me the cold shoulder...there have been many instances in my life that have impacted me in such a way were i feel like there is no escape for me. I've been going through a lot in my life because of the difficulties i'm presently going through. Tons, MILLIONS of things are going through my mind and life...things like the fear of loosing those i love most.. not matter who in everyone's lifetime someone is bound to find that one true love or that unconditional love you have with certain people in your family. When i was aware of the diagnosis of my aunt who was diagnosed with cancer. My heart shattered knowing i might loose someone who has been like a second mother to me. And when i found out a few months later that my other aunt was diagnosed with cervical cancer, i felt like a sledge hammer had smashed my heart in pieces so small that there would be no longer any chance of rebuilding it. And now being aware of the condition of my parents unstable relationship falling apart everyday of my life. I know for some it might be like "it's okay my parents split too." but the majority of those who have parents who've split probably split while you were still young. But i know for a fact there are still those handful of people who are loosing the safety of having two parents at late stages of there life. Its hard for anyone to grow up not having the charisma of a mother or protection of a father. One parent can't fulfill the duties one of the two halves could. For me life is like the deep blue ocean(the abyss as they call it) it's unknown it's something no one will able to perceive because we don't know what is ahead of us the deeper we swim down to the bottom..and like the ocean going through life is rougher and rougher each step we take forward..like the ocean each time you swim a couple feet lower the pressure becomes so unbearable that it crushes our bodies making it difficult for us to move forward. Like life with every step we take we take on conflicts, decisions, hardships, and love.

• conflicts - the stress errupters. conflicts is what we may go through in life that interfere with our life and we have to solve.

• decisions - the choices we have to make to better ourselves.
• Hardships - the troughs we may go through
• love - the last but definitely not least, the love we have for our family, friends, and special ones.

Freedom is not worth having if it does not include the freedom to make mistakes.

-Mahatma Gandhi

As Gandhi said it, freedom is not worth having if it does not include the freedom to make mistakes... i believe the key ideal of living life is to make mistakes and learn from it.. because if you live you're life without making mistakes how else would you know how to live it the right way or to the best of your ability... though we make mistakes there is also forgiveness for those mistakes you made. Though how great the penalty or dire the situation like Cherrie Carter-Scott said...Anger makes you smaller, while forgiveness forces you to grow beyond what you were. Though how great one man or womans wisdom can be how do we know whether or not it is really worth forgiving? The only way to really know is through self perspective.. The gravity of one's mistake cannot be altered through our owns hands but only be over looked through time. Though how much you wish you can pull back the time though the physics of time won't allow us to do so. With the past mistakes we must not hold grudges for decades to come but let the healing process overtake your mind and allow yourself to forget. Though the level or extremeness the mistake was we should not allow it to reach it apex to the point where we make decisions based on the grudge we have.