July 30, 2009

ahhhh contemplating.

thinking thinking thinking
its whaat i've been doing so much lately
i'm kinda glad that i was able to control the dumb things i say better
hard as it was i was able to do it....but when do you know when
the liiine was just drawn to thick?

relationships...whaaaaat keeps them and what are they based off of?
to me it all depends on the kind of relationship you have...
whether its to love..lust..or just comfort..
but what differentiates the three from one another?
well first of all the comfort kind of relationship is one which i believe you can receive from someone who you see is
just the friend.
the lust is the kind you have with someone who you find physically attractive and all you want
to do and have with that person is the 'lust' factor. The fact that you only seek that relationship for the
lust and pleasure of it instead of what can be achieved through a relationship of love.
with a relationship that consist of love i believe that with that love you get the benefit of all three...without over powering one another. But the beauty and the essence of the 'love' type of relationship is that it provides much moore than just the three but many other small important kind of relationship that i believe you must always have with the one your in love with. You must build a relationship surrounding not the lust..or comforting..but around the genuine ideal of being with that person because you have the love you've built and received from that person. The type of love that doesn't require the need to run to them only when in need but to run to them at all times knowing they're there to love and support you with anything. The type of love that doesn't require the lustful passion to just have sex. A relationship is more than just that. Its a bond you build with that one person that you give and open your heart completely to.

but don't get me wrong although the comforting shouldn't be forced and the lust shouldnt be the main reason why you linger in the relationship. These do matter. Although the relationship you have shouldn't be overpowered with the ideal..that your staying in it because they're comforting thats not what a 'loving' and 'strong' relationship is based on but the comforting factor should still be there just not out doing the most important thing..the 'love'.....Lust we all need it in some way and we all lust in different ways. But lust shouldn't take over our hearts. Although maybe it might seem as if you think that Lust is what its all about you should'nt 'not do it' and think not doing it will prove that its not overbearing all the parts of the relationship..but to make it understood that it isn't. Just because you stop something to prove it doesn't mean it's entirely over. The passion you have with your partner is a bond you only share with them and should share with them. if you think that not showing some sort of affection is going to solve anything think again. You must just make an understanding between both halves of the relationship that lust is not what your relationship is about if you don't want it to be. in a relationship you made a commitment to one another that is different than any other type of commitment. Don't get me wrong Lust shouldn't over power the heart...nor should the comfort of just having the first available able person around..should either...But relationships consist of them...its up to the two of you to build the understanding that the relationship is based on the love you have for one another. And that if you feel one thing may over power the love...Talk and show that its not...Don't stop it because of that reason...but only engrave in your mind and your relationship that it isn't...with a loving healthy relationship.. you must communicate...be trustworthy and trustworthy of your love...completely honest even if your hated for expressing the truth rather than adored by telling lies..passionate towards each other...willing to take an extra step when needed..comforting and supportive towards one another. Last but not least you must express your Love in the best of your own abilities. Because the way you may show how much you love a person can never be matched..or perfected. The way you say you love and the way you show you love a person....shouldn't have a structure..because love is mysterious..the way you love a person can never be the same as you love a family member. The way you show how much you love that person....there shouldn't be any fear of curiosity on how to express it because love is the most unique thing one can offer to someone else. And as unique as it is there is no set way to show it...say it..express it..confront it. Love has no equal. The love you can offer isn't all perfect..but it can be visualized as perfect to the one person you may be giving it to.

Love might hurt the most but at the same time it offers much much more than just pain.

I know i've been letting certain factors affect me when it shouldn't and i've learned to not let it overpower or overtake me no long.

i'm so very much in love with Klarissa Natalia Latigay Libramonte.


a night i will remember and will keep in my heart forever...Thank you Hope for the World...for the warm welcome to your church.

as far as what i'm feeling for..
i'm exciteedddd!!! i've never
and i mean never been to the oc fair
and i'm going today with who else but the one i'm in mad love with


yaaaaaaaaaaaaay! for today..thing is....
who's driving? hahaha

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